I Still Can't Believe It

Everything today has been pretty mellow. I slept in, chilled around the house, did laundry, talked on the phone, all around did nothing too exciting. Matter of fact I was in a good mood, enjoying the day and the opportunity to relax. My friend Crystal and I headed into work together and that's when everything changed.

Returning to High School

Having graduated from high school some time ago, it was odd returning for one of my younger brother's graduation. Driving over to the stadium where the event is held I was struck by the conversations my family was having. I came to see how funny and cold my family is.

One of the things my best friend had brought up to me is that I tend to put people down and most of the time in an almost unnoticeable way that came off humorous. I realized that he was right. I want to build people up and it had become a horrible habit in me this tearing down others, even subtly. Even worse was the realization that my whole family partakes in this habit, and that includes me.

Community Part I

In a society that lives on Facebook, Twitter, chats, emails, text messaging, and Skyping we still are very much a separated group of people. We like our privacy, which is such a contradiction considering what kind of pictures people will upload. But that's just it. We keep people at a distance when it comes to meaningful topics and issues, to depth. I don't know where you live, but here in the States, most people (especially us city folks) don't know their own neighbors. On that note, most people move so much that people rarely stay in the same location for more than a couple years. But I know how good and important community is.

During my college years I had a group of close friends of about four other girls. We often came together for more than homework, studying and having fun. We would stay up until the early hours of the morning opening up to each other about our personal struggles, victories, successes, failures, hope, aspirations and fears. We talked about God, politics, our culture and responsibilities, we talked about boys, what it meant to live a Christian life and everything in between. Coming back home from graduation, I came to discover that my friends in college are rare indeed.

(Gingerbread cookie faces of Justina, Robin, Bree and Janelle, made by yours truly)

Little Experiment!

On my bathroom counter is a large number of various products: facial products, hair products, teeth cleaning stuff and lots of make up! I honestly considered becoming a make up artist for quite some time. Underneath the counter is another makeup bag (or two) filled with eye shadows, lipsticks, lip glosses, blushes, concealers, and serums. I spend at least an hour a day getting ready in front of the bathroom mirror doing my hair and make up.

There is nothing wrong with taking care of and grooming one's self. I believe that making myself look my best is actually good! But I also have to admit I things are out of order for me. Focusing on how one looks is all well and good, but when it goes into nitpicking about this and that it probably isn't the best.

New Perspective: What I Listen To

I love me some Pandora. I mean being able to create your own radio stations with minimal commercials, what's not to love?

But then I started to actually listen to what the songs were saying.