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There are many people who go to college knowing exactly what they want to do. And then there are those lovely "undecided" students. I was "undecided" for two years and choose to get my A.A. degree in general education to buy me some time. After that things got a little more pressured. Thing is I love school, I loved being in the classroom, learning with my classmates, discussing the numerous topics, doing research papers, elaborating on ideas and expanding my horizons. I loved living on campus too. But I flourished in the scholastic dimensions, aka not a party girl. Don't misunderstand, I had a great social life, but I was focused on school.

Today Is What Day?

This week I've confused my days. And it hasn't played out so well. I missed my shift yesterday. But thankfully my manager was understanding. It was a simple mistake on my part. 

This morning was a blaze of blue. It was absolutely gorgeous! But the best part about today is that I've been with Him for more of it than most days. While working I noticed that I forgot Him as soon as I allowed myself to become frustrated and when I started to talk badly about others. From there it was going downhill. I'm sorry. I failed. Thank you God for forgiving me and drawing me near again. Thank you for your presence and without you I can only fail. Lord I need you. The day is still not yet finished. May it end as beautifully as it began, with you!

The Love Project: Choices and Their Outcomes

Remember how I mentioned there are two people at work with whom I don't exactly "click" with? This morning I had the opportunity to work with one of them. And you know what? It was great! I was getting a little frustrated with my assigned tasks and she was not only quick to help me but also was encouraging. To be honest, it's been a difficult to love others on my own. The last couple of days I've been very "me" focused and it's shown in various ways. But yesterday things started changing for the better again. Instead of putting my attention on myself and what's been going on there I realized that the best way to love others is to love God. The best way to love God is to know Him ever better. Like any relationship, to love them you have to get to know them better and the more you know them the more you love them.

Saying the Hardest Goodbye...

Today began with such joy and excitement. My best friend and his little boy came and picked me up early this morning. But by the time noon rolled around the final chapter on our friendship was closing. No one will probably ever understand what happened, I don't even think we do. All I know is that though I didn't want this to happen, it's what is best. Am I hurt? Yes. Disappointed? Most certainly. Angry? Not really, no, no I'm not angry. Just hurt, disappointed, and very very sad about it. He said he knows we'll see each other again and probably sooner than I expect. He asked if I believed him. I said no I didn't believe him, I didn't think we'd probably ever see each other again. I don't even know if I'll ever even get to talk to him. But he's probably right, we'll probably see one another again, sometime...

God is...

(The sky last October)

I just don't have words. I'm amazed and feel as if new life is being poured into me. It's easy to forget that God really does have everything under control. It's the difference between knowing God will take care of me and knowing God is taking care of me and will continue to take care of me.

The Love Project Taking It To Work: Unbelievable

Night was probably the best night I've had at work to date! Having this new attitude and mindset is at least changing me. Like I mentioned in the previous post, there are two people in particular that I normally don't enjoy being around. They're not bad people, just very different than me and it's just a challenge to work with them. Tonight I was working alongside one of the two nearly the whole time. Did I mention that tonight was one of the best nights at work yet?

The Love Project Taking It To Work

"The rule for all of us is perfectly simple. Do not waste time bothering whether you "love" your neighbor; act as if you did. As soon as we do this, we find one of the great secrets. When you are behaving as if you love someone, you will presently come to love him. If you injure someone you dislike, you will find yourself disliking him more. If you do him a good turn, you will find yourself disliking him less." -C.S. Lewis

I have to admit I'm not too excited about this... There are two people in particular that are a challenge to be around. Both of whom are supposed to be at work tonight. However, as much as it's easy to love people who already love us, it is important, perhaps far more important to show love and to honestly love the people that don't love us. Didn't Jesus say to love our enemies and to love those who hate us? These two may not hate me or be my enemy, but we're not friends either. There is tension between us and it's far more stressful to work with them then anyone else.