Standing On The Edge

And facing the choice to pursue a career opportunity or not. You ever have the option to go down a path that is great in many ways but you just know that it isn't where you should be going? Stephanie is back from South Korea and what she shared made me think even more deeply about possibly doing a similar move. I wrote out reasons why I should or shouldn't go... but then God interrupted!

Simply Put

I can't do this. Yet I'm learning that is the point. I can't do this. But with Him all things are possible.

And while this news could ruin my day, it really can't! I know that God is going to take care of me. Yes, things maybe tight around here, but as long as He is with me things will be good.

What I Want My LIfe To Be

I won't tell you what I want my life to be without telling what has been happening. Things have changed since last week. I could say that everything has been amazing, easy and things are just "falling together." But in reality things have been challenging, but infinitely better! I didn't get my car, it won't be ready for another two weeks. Work has been hectic most of the time. Today's shift was great though!

Two Years Ago...

I was teaching swim lessons and coaching. I was working at a local sports club/gym and spent at least half of my day in the water. I was working with some of my best friends and was the summer camp director for the club and later was put in charge of the aquatics department during the last month of the gym's existence. Two years ago I was biking an average of 10+ miles to and from work and had thighs of steel (no joke, those hills were killer). I was fresh out of college and back in my hometown, the last place I wanted to be. I started wearing a two-piece bathing suit, which was a huge deal for me and I looked good!

Thing is two years ago, I was a completely different person.

The Most Lovingest Day So Far

Quick update! This last Sunday was amazing. No joke it was spectacular!  My dear, friend who has been like a big sister for me, moved to South Korea about a year ago. She has been teaching English to elementary school students there and guess what? She came home!! I was at church and the first service people were leaving and the second service people were arriving. And there in the midst of the crowd I couldn't believe my eyes, I saw her! I had moved to Cali about four months prior to her move and so it's been quite a long time since we've seen each other. We were laughing and nearly crying with joy and hugging each other! One of the best surprises ever. But that is just the beginning!

This Month's Theme: Transformation

Oh and last month's was "Love as Christ Loved." Funny how things work huh? Last month truly was about letting Christ's love pour through me so that I could love others a little more like He does. The Love Project began last month, I've been learning how to "speak" clearer the love languages of other people, and so much more. I've learned that loving some people means doing what is absolutely best for you and them, and it meant saying goodbye, for now, to one dear person in particular. My eyes are being opened up to the immensity of God's love for me. I still cannot express these things well.

Theology of the Body: Revisiting

I finally finished up Christopher West's Theology of the Body, Into the Heart, CD series. I can't help but be different. It is like when you burn your finger. Sure you get that you touched something hot, but until you examine the details that compose how the body works you just don't reach the depths and appreciate all that goes into the body's protective, healing and notification system... And it is more than having a deeper understanding and appreciation, there is something that is going on within me that I can't explain. I am changing.

Ever dream of going on a treasure hunt? This is kind of like that. My best friend asked if I wanted to listen to the Cd's, like being given a map. The more I listened and questioned and was open the more I journey to and discovered the treasures. They may not be golden coins and pearl necklaces, but it is far better. The treasure I am finding is indescribable... and beautiful. And yes, at times the journey to the treasure, maybe more of to receive the treasure, has been painful too. But more than worth it. I can't be the same person I was, that person is gone.